I would like to tell you about a woman I know, or maybe don't know, I am not quite
sure. But this woman changed everything for me, she opened a new world for me, a
world which was always there, I just didn't know.
But I have met her many times since I met her for the first time, as a child. We have
spent long hours together, and she has told me her story, my story and everybody's
Maybe this is not only about this woman, but about what this woman gave me, what it was and is for you and me.
She said her name was Steinunn, but she has had so many names before and afterthis. The names themselves are not so important,they are just there so we can use
them when are phoning each other, ot when we are calling each other, so we don't
need to say ' Hi , you' all the time.
I first met her, when I was 12 years old. I sat on a rock on the beach in my
hometown. I sat listening to the waves and thought about everything lying at the
bottom of the sea, all the fish, sharks and whales swimming around there, and I
couldn't see whether they were looking at me , secretly, and whether they were
wondering, who I was, the girl sitting on a rock, looking at the sea and thinking about
I felt it was so strange with this seaworld, which was completely invisible for me, but
which I knew was full of life, nevertheless. It was as if another dimension was lying
right in front of me, which I couldn't look through.
But a woman came, she was wearing a green summerdress and a strawhat, on her
head. She had dark hair and green eyes. She didn't look much like the image I used to
see in this area, but even so was just as alive as I was, sitting on the rock surrounded
by screeching sea-gulls and with the sound of waves in my ears.
She walked with slow steps, and I saw that she looked at me and smiled. It was as if
she knew me, and she assumed that I knew that she knew me. I smiled back and
thought about how beautiful she was, and how strange she was in the surroundings
and at this time, and I was wondering whether this was real ?
She came and sat down next to me and we sat on the rock for a long time, without
saying anything. While we were sitting there looking at the sea, I thought about what
I should do or what I should say to this beautiful woman, who had travelled in time
and space and now sat with her hat between her hands, rolling it between her fingers
in this fine and beautiful way of somebody, who understands everything and sees
I looked at her and said : ' Hello, who are you ?'
She look at me and smiled : ' My name is Steinunn'.
'What are you doing here?' I asked.
'I can see you', she said.
I was silent for a long time, didn't know, what I should say and thought: ' What does
she want with me?'
'Why? ' I said.
'Because I would like to tell you something.'
'What?' I asked.
'I will tell you about me and you and everything else.'
Oh. We sat for a while without saying anything and just looked at the waves.
'You are now 12 years old', she said, 'and I have been waiting for this moment. Now I
will follow you and help, until you are able to stand alone and do what you are meant to do.
That was odd. Why did the strange woman want to help me ? What did she want to
help me with ? How did she know that I was here, when my mum and dad didn't know it, and I hadn't even told my sister or my friends, where I was going. I just walked away from everything, to be by myself and not be bothered by anyone.
This was my secret place, which nobody else knew about. How could she know I was
Everythings was so strange. But when I looked up from my thoughts, she had gone.
I went home and thought to myself that suddenly she was there, and just as suddenly
she was gone. How did she do that ? Did she disappear without me noticing, or did she have wings ? Did she become a mermaid throwing herslef into the waves, when I
wasn't looking ? Where did she come from, who was she. Everything was really
A couple of weeks later the summerholiday was over, and I was ready for school to
start, looking forward to meeting my friends. Everybody had been somewhere, in the
countryside or in another country or where people may go during their holiday. But
we, in my family, had been at home during the summer, like other previous summers.
We children always played all sorts of games after school, and it was great to be in
the childhoodworld with other children again, after the separation during summer.
But everything was not well during the autumn, in my hometown. At this time of year
the sheep are taken down from the mountains, where they have lived in harmony the
whole summer, while eating grass and heather and other delicacies. They have lived in tune with the other nature kingdoms the whole summer.
But in the autumn, many of them are to be slaughtered.
This was a difficult time for me. It has always been a very difficult time for me. It
wasn't like this for everybody, because at that time lots of money flowed into the
town, in tandem with streams of blood flowing from the poor animals in the
During this season I have always felt that the town smelt of blood together with the
fear I heard all over town, when a lamb is looking for its mother and a mother is
looking for its lamb. There was chaos and smell of blood and hard voices and sound of knives, coming from those doing the work.
My hometown is a small town, with 250 people living close together, but in the small
town, there were two slaughterhouses. The town was buzzing with fear, blood,
anxiety and money in the long months of autumn, while the whole thing was going on.
No matter how many pillows I covered my ears with, when lying in my bed, I heard
the fear which came from inside, from outside and from everywhere.
I was now sitting at my secret place on the beach again, as so often before, and tried
to think about something else than what was going on in my town. I tried not to hear
or feel the loneliness and fear which was everywhere, both outside me and inside me.
It felt as if I was a part of that fear and that was strange. It was as if I was the one
who feared or was the beings, who feared. I couldn't tell the difference, we were
Suddenly Steinunn is sitting next to me, just as suddenly as she disappeared earlier.
'I know this is a difficult time for you', she said.
'I can't shut out the sound', I said.
'I can help you, and I can help you to help them'.
I looked at her and didn't quite know what she meant. Help me to help them. That was
impossible. But I nodded quietly.
'Close your eyes and empty your mind of all thoughts', she said. 'Take all the time you
I closed my eyes and the thoughts were flying all over the place , up and down, it was
impossible for me to try to stop them. So I also thought about stopping to think, then
I thought to myself that this also was thinking.
I opened my eyes and looked at Steinunn:' I can't stop thinking, and when I try to
stop the thoughts, then I think about stopping to think, and that is also to think, isn't
Steinunn smiled at me, placed her index finger on my forehead, and I felt peace
flowing through me.
Silence, which I had never experienced before, it was as if it was buzzing in my head
or maybe as if I was standing in soda, I'm not quite sure how to explain it. It
was silence, it was clarity, I was open to everything and everything was open to me.
Far away I hear Steinunn's voice say :Look inside, where you see and experience the sheep, see them one by one and flocks by flocks. Use all your will power to keep this image in your focus. See how it whas before, sheep in the physical form now change into one great, shining light.
Radiant light which is linked to you. You are linked together. Above both of you – you and the light – you can see a bigger light with golden threads, connected to all the
sheep. Golden threads from this light bigger light are connected to all sheep in
Iceland. Hold on to this image in your consciousness, as long as you can.
Now, when the image has stabilised, then focus the big light above the sheep. Merge
all your will and love for the sheep with this stream, a stream of energy, which
creates contact with this highest being, the animal soul , Deva.
What you now see and experience is a direct contact with the great deva of the
sheep. What you now experience is a gathering of all the lives and experiences all
sheep have had before and are having now. This angel/ animal deva is the one, which
merges all the sheep in Iceland into one living being, they are a part of each other.
Just like you have your soul, all these sheep have the same souls, which we call group
soul, which unites them into one. What the sheep in this town experience, all their
sufferings, influence all sheep in Iceland, all sheep in the entire world.
Now send gratitude and blessings for this big sacrifice, which these sheep give, so
that we human beings in Iceland have food and energy to survive.
Send now light and all the love which you are able to. See it flow through you and to
the divine being.
See the light stream from this divine being to all sheep on their way in their evolution
here on earth. Send gratitude for their sacrifice for us and an apology for what we
take from them.
Now focus in your consciousness, and see that the light fills their consciousness with
calmness and silence, which include their minds and make their journey through the
pain easier. It deepens their understanding of what is happening.
Direct your focus towards those who are doing the work slaughtering them, see them
receive light and love, which help them to understand, while opening their
consciousness for the sacrifice, the sheep are giving, so that those humans may show
respect and understanding for the life leaving the earthly life for another life. See
energy, light and love stream from their highest and their lowest into the offering/ the viction, and show gratitude for this life.
We see the energy of love stream into what we now see and call foods, which will feed us in the near future...
While she was talking, she was far away. It was as if I couldn't hear where the voice
came from, from above, from below, from inside.
The whole thing was as real as it was sitting on the secret stone.
I felt that I was gradually returning to the formlife, I was usually present in.
I opened my eyes and looked ahead of me, at the waves and I didn't really want to
I was now alone and that was good.
I needed to be alone with the thoughts, which came and didn't come.
I didn't understand all that had happened, but something had happened which
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